Hey guys!  Im really sorry.  I have been sooo busy this past month.  Marching band has come to an end and concert band has entered into my world.  So thats been a little bit hectic.  Also, Chemistry is really beginning to be a pain in the you know what!! haha  But my bf is like a Chemistry genius/miracle!  haha so i can always just use him as a study buddy! hehe.
Also, my friend Aaron just returned from basic about a week ago.  He was gone for four months, and is back for only two.  he is pretty much my big brother, always watching out for me, but always there to punch me in the arm when i act retarded or smart off to him.  lol  Hes a GREAT friend! xD  But he's the only one who has seen me cry the most.  I ususally dont let my friends see me cry, cause im known for being the one who's always optimistic, always happy and energetic, and always there to cheer you up with all the right things to say.  But if i let you in to the point where im perfectly myself, then ill cry.  But ne ways..thats not really what i wanted to talk about today.
The fact that Aaron is in the National Guard is what i wanted to talk about.  He LOVES his guns.  haha But im scared when he gets diployed.  I REALLY dont want another one of my best friends to just get up and walk away from me for the rest of my life.  And Aaron is, like i said before, my big brother, and i NEVER want anything to ever hurt him.  He deserves to be alive and live the life that he really wants.  I would do anything for him because of all the times hes given me his shoulder to cry on, and just all that hes ever done for me!  I love him to death and nothing could ever change that! 
When i first ever knew his name, even before actually meeting him, i never in a million years would have seen myself being besties with him.  Seriously, it would only be possible in a different universe..maybe.  lol
But now i rely on him and look up to him more than ne one else in my life, and i look back to the times where i barely knew him and i think of how surreal it just is. 
Hes a really great person, but im still scared that he might not make it out of Iraq.  Its gonna be a really sad day when he gets dipolyed.  but i told him that when he gets back, ill be there waiting for him, to pic him up! =) 

well, that about does it for whats been on my mind lately..haha
im pretty tired, and my scanners being physically mental...so im just gonna go to bed.
I will write more soon..hopefully...if chemistry and band and David dont take over my life! lol

Hello.  Its my second post, and i actually have something to discuss. 
If i hadn't put in my profile, i am in marching band.  I love everything about marching band.  Its amazing, and learning drill is soooo cool.  But the thing is, im not very dedicated to the school marching band which i am in. 
I have always pretty much hated my band.  Since freshman year (im a junior now) i haven't really ever been as dedicated as i am in the summer.
During the summer (btw) i attend the marching band track at Bands Of America (BOA).  Its literally one of thee greatest experiences ever and i know how lucky i am to actually be able to afford that week.  Anyways, i LOVE that marching band sooo much.  Everyone is there to have some fun! And the atmosphere is sooo calm and relaxed, and it just makes you wanna get up earlier than you really have to, to get to the field so you can socialize with some of the people there.  Its such an amazing place, and i would give almost ne thing to have that week be the whole summer!! Its just sooo great. 
But here's the thing...I get to my marching band, and everyone's just like blaahhh...
We dont encourage eachother, we have negative attitudes towards everyone, section leaders talk down to their whole section, etc.  There's just really no optimism there.  No fun. 
Honestly, would you wanna have to wake up in the morning, and go spend about 2 hours before school marching with a band that makes you bored and discouraged?  I wouldn't.  And thats why my dedication level is almost on the floor right now.  Im not encouraged to get up early (im NOT a morning person at all) in the morning and go march with this band. 
So I was thinking about it this morning, and i decided to talk to our director about it.  (About a day or two into the season, i decided to quit because i couldnt handle all of the pessimists.  And i decided to join back in, because the director told me that if ne thing went on, he would fix it.) He didnt really let me explain too much, but he did take in and process what i had to say, and told me that he wasnt having too much fun either and told me that he would try to change the mood.  I didnt get to say all that i really wanted to say.
But this morning, i thought, "ok.  our band director is dedicated to his job.  Why?  He LOVES his job, and that's what drives him to come to his job every morning."
But then i thought, "ok.  Im NOT dedicated to this band.  Why?  I [pretty much] HATE our band, and thats why im not driven to wake up for marching band in the morning."
Its as sumple as that...and i really wish i could enjoy this to its fullest, instead of half-way like i am right now. 
Im not being hypocritical here now.  I DO encourage the younger trumpet players (yes..im a girl trumpet. but i rock!) all the time.  If they did something wrong, i dont tear them down with rude comments.  I tell them what they did wrong, and tell them what they can do to do it better.  And if they do something good, i dont hesitate to comment them on it.  So, i do make a real effort to keep the attitude light in the trumpet section.  And it does work.  I love sectionals now. 
But im not sure if i can control the whole band, and the band director is not really doin too much. 
I dont want my senior year to be this horrible. 
But ne ways...tell me your comments, or experiences with groups of ppl with negativity like this.  And tell me how you dealt with it!  It would really help me out!
thanx
xoxox
Sarah

p.s. sry this was rather long, but there was a lot to put in there!
p.p.s(i think thats right...pps? whatevz) Homecoming is tomorrow and im soooooo fucking excited!!!! Im going with an actual bf this time and not some awkward date!! xD  and then i have his homecoming to go to the weekend after!! And the dress i got last night looks soooo amazingly cute on me!! I CANT wait!!

Well, ive had a few xangas in the past, but never kept them up. Ill try keeping this one up..but i cant make ne promises. If it gets boring, then i wont be on too much. so ne ways..im Sarah. Im friendly so please dont be intimidated in any way. =)